With the end of the forensics season - and not having a long-distance relationship anymore - I have suddenly found loads of spare time with which I can do things. This has been problematic, as it means that I have had time to brood and be moody at people (re: read the rest of my blog). However, it also means that I now have time to figure out what needs to be figured out. I have been doing new things to try to find out what I like to do as a single person, as me.
- Clubbing. I went and re-discovered that I dislike dancing at dances/clubs. I don't really know how to and what I do remember (from the 8th grade, mind you) strikes me as so very mechanical. People pick 3 basic moves that they can preform adequately and repeat them. All night. They also enjoy trying to rub themselves on other people in order to raise their overall image in the eyes of people not involved in the direct process. So silly. Also, the club that we went to had music that I didn't know, which doesn't help break the monotony.
- I found someone to argue with. This is amazing. I didn't realize how much I missed having to defend my own position on something - usually I am on the attack or am not allowed to argue. So meeting a friend who has similar interests and wants to argue made my
day whole month. This is probably the reason I talked about him to everybody.
- As a single chick, I am back into the precarious position of proving to society that I am ssocially capable. While with th3 goofball, I did not need to prove that I was cute - I already had someone. But now, even though I have no intention of having a boyfriend, I have a compulsive need to show that I am attractive. This has resulted in the wearing of necklaces. And a strange desire to go shopping for clothes. Cute clothes - including a sun dress. I have also stopped wearing ponytails everywhere. (I am a headband person now.)
- Concentration on schoolwork. While the drama of being in forensic tournament month and being the source of relationship angst and eventual breakup happened, I wasn't able to concentrate on my schoolwork - too many other things were happening in my head. But now that school has started, and I am unable to be moody full time, I am actually doing better, and am only procrastinating at my normal levels.
7 comments:
1) clubs are terrifying, the end.
2) great, now I want to argue with someone. but I have nothing to argue about. woe!
also you did not talk about him to me. I want to hear this.
3) I wholeheartedly approve of sundresses and headbands, but! youuuu should look like what you want to look like, not what People Who Aren't You want you to look like. otherwise dressing up is no fun at all. I fear I sound patronizing and I really don't mean to be, so I'll shut up now, but :(
1) This one had go-go dancers in tight underwear. Two were cute, the rest were just almost naked.
2) I did too. I am talking about AB.
3)But I think that I want to change my look. I don't really want to examine this any further because then I will have to feel guilty during my feminist class - we are doing the body image stuff right now.
1) AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
2) you hadn't when I posted this. *amused at you and AB all over again*
3) so change, feminist means you can look however the hell you want to look. go for it!
1) They were wearing their underwear so tight that they had wedgies.
2) But... I suppose you can be amused. *gives permission*
3) Not really. But I ditched feminist class today to make up for the guilty feelings.
Why not really? I don't see how girls who don't shave their legs are any more feminist than ones who do. (Using that as an example because I have so had this argument with my mother. And I totally lost, but my conviction remains! Mostly I don't like it when people pit feminists against Women, as if those are two different kinds of creature.)
Hmm. People who don't shave are Refusing To Conform and therefore are more dedicated to the ideals of equality?
Search me. I don't shave, but that is because I am lazy and have blond hair anyways.
Lol at the club dancing thing. that is hilarious! people DO have three basic moves and repeat it when they dance. i never thought of that.
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